In a recent conversation with my Soul, I asked "Why am I here?" The answer I received was "Why do you want to be here?" I replied, hesitantly, "To love and be loved? Can it be as simple as that?" My Soul replied "Do you find that simple?" I felt almost silly for wanting this, and yet it became clearer as the conversation progressed, that it's really all there is. All that matters.
Part of me wishes I could tell you I've mastered this. That my days and nights are peaceful and joyous. My relationships nourishing and fulfilling. My work joyful and fulfilling my Soul's purpose. Love leads my thoughts and actions. Depression, fear, and anxiety - gone! Things of the past. I'm healed! Done!
If only that were true, right?
What I can honestly say, is that after much work, dedication, many good teachers, a whole bunch of unlearning, relearning, and a healthy sprinkling of Grace, all of these statements are, at times, true.
I still get caught up in the stories and feelings I've carried since before I can remember. Anxiety and depression still show up and say "Hey!"
I'm onto myself now. I spend less time ruminating, and more time turning into what I'm experiencing with loving kindness and compassion. Parts of myself, long hidden and yearning to be seen and held, are feeling safe to come forward and receive the love they've (I've) been longing for.
Even with my trials and tribulations, I feel blessed (when I remember to allow myself to that is) to have found my way through my despair (scenic as my path has been) and to be coming out the other side - to see more clearly the present moment and the potential it holds.
I believe gifts are given to be shared, and that it is through sharing they are most fully received. I love to help people tap into the abundant well of love, joy, peace, and support they hold within, and bring it enough into their awareness that it becomes a go to resource to call upon, or fall into, as they need it - to help them steer through the myriad of challenges that life seems to throw our way.
We all have it. We are all worthy, deserving, good enough, and loveable enough to access this inner resource. Our animals, our Guides, our Souls are a just a few points of entry and can help show the way.